-By Sai Sivaranjani Naidu
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“My mother is a darling and dear lady loved by all. People are in praise of her kindness. I don’t know what to speak. About which incident or memory do I have to speak about? There aren’t one or two beautiful memories, but thousands and thousands! How and with what do I start with?
I feel she is still there with me. Amma and I were very attached and we did everything together. My mother played the role of a mom and dad to me. My father and I of course love each other, but Amma took care of me from his side too. Be it, about school/college. We had literally super fun and entertainment. She was my mother, but I swear she behaved like someone who was much younger than me. Actually true! She jumped around, made weird and funny faces, played games with me, imitated people and chatted non-stop. We were always ‘blah-blah-blah’ persons.
She is a lady that nobody else can be or even try to be. Winner of many awards like Padma Shri and Nritya Choodamani, she was the same wonderful and down-to-earth human being after all these prestigious awards. Usually, after receiving many awards people get an attitude, but the number of awards increased her sweetness and positive attitude. Being a guru, she thought twice to scold her students. But when she scolded, she felt very bad, actually more than the student.
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Also, she never collected fees from students who had difficulty in paying. She taught them free. When we went out for family lunch/dinner, she asked those students to accompany us who could not afford fancy restaurants. She just wanted to see them happy. She always arranged lunch for all of us during long-day rehearsal sessions. When there was a rehearsal session from morning to evening, after the morning session rehearsal, she arranged lunch and then would leave us all to relax or play games outside. We played Kho-Kho, Kabaddi, Dumb-charades, many, many more… and we would resume our session around 4pm. She felt we were tired and then would bring us all some snacks and juices/drinks for all the students. She just wanted all of us to be happy and active.
Mother never taught me secretly at home. Even when I asked her to teach me some golden compositions of hers, she always said, “No, learn those items when I teach everybody in class”. Amma never treated me like a special student or daughter in class. I was treated just like others. She never showed difference in giving me characters/roles. She would give an opportunity to everybody because she says, giving opportunity will help them showcase their talent and build confidence.
GOLDEN HEART: I Love you Amma and I Miss You! She is my Guardian Angel and my Guiding Force. Whatever I am today, is only because of you and I know you will always be guiding me from Heaven. It has been exactly one year since I have lost you, but loss has taught me many things and now, I face each day with hope and happy memories to help me on my way. Though I am full of sadness that you are no longer here, your influence still guides me and I still feel you nearby. Each second which I had spent under your shade, was the biggest blessing of my life.
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Wherever I go and whatever I do, I just see your reflection in everything. Whatever you left incomplete, I will finish that for you. I will take your Legacy to Greater Heights. Your death took a huge toll on my life. I am still in deep trauma and I don’t know how long I am going to be in this state.”
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